Politics In Verse: Inquilab Zindabad

The subcontinent, both pre and post partition, has never been without the public’s political discontent as can be made evident by a look through its history of mutinies, martial law, and disobedience movements. Discontent, moreover, is a phenomena easily romanticized, especially with its enticing allure upon the subordinate as well as the adolescent segments of a society. Poetry, therefore, principally that which has political subtexts, has never found itself wanting of inspiration in this part of the world. The fame of poets including Nazeer Akbarabadi, Khwaja Mir Dard, Bahadur Shah Zafar, and of those more contemporary including Habib Jalib and Faiz Ahmed Faiz is indicative of this perpetual inspiration.

Ben Learner, in his book, “The Hatred of Poetry”, portrays “contempt” as inseparable from the success of poetry. However, he does not attribute to poetry the potential to aggravate change. Similarly, many would argue that the form is merely a peripheral influencer of the consensus, an apolitical concept, and the importance given to it is reflective of both elitist sentiments and naïve intuition.

The writings of Faiz Ahmed Faiz, an Indo-Pakistani leftist poet however, stand for exactly what this critique of poetry denies. As an answer to Zia’s repressive usurpation of power, the poet created one of his most powerful works, ‘Hum Dekhain Gey”. With Faiz imprisoned, bootleg cassette tapes with recordings of a performance of this work by Iqbal Bano in her controversial black sari were smuggled throughout the country. A particular interpretation of his verses attributes to Zia, the great sin of associating himself with God, and hence his words aim to awake the consciences of the suppressed classes and do away with the prevalent mirage of amity.

It is a theory that the intimacy associated with a scrutinized reading of poetry is a materialization of the elitism it inherently emerges from. It suggests that as a poet must discover his audience, the reader must also identify a poet that he or she resonates with the most. To put it bluntly, poetry has its own niche, not suited to the masses, rather to a distinct type of individual who retrieves from the poetry a mutuality of ‘frequency’. As it happens, the distinct type referred to often alludes to the affluent.

Habib Jalib, however, another Indo-Pakistani poet, born in East Punjab, may indeed be, in the words of the aforementioned Faiz, “ the poet of the masses”. He wrote in a straightforward language, encompassing the plights of the working class. When Bhutto’s policies diverged from the essentially socialist manifesto of the PPP, Jalib took notice and spoke against the government in support of the Pakistanis who suffered at the hands of this divergence. He was jailed for what was not his first term in prison at the hands of a ruler uncompromising and unwilling to face opposition.

Passivity and apathy describe the level of animation of the Pakistani citizenry and are extremely uncharacteristic adjectives for Iqbal’s poetry, verses to which we owe the inspiration of the Pakistan Movement. If poetry is really food for the soul then it is poetry which must extend the promise of revolution to Pakistanis that must become hungry for their liberation. After 71 long years of coups, corruption charges, and media blackouts, poets such as Jalib and Faiz should be recognized for their tenacity and resolve when it came to sketching for the public, the moral destination that Pakistan has to progress to. They created visionary works accessible to more than just the crème de la crème of Pakistan, works unstained by naivety.

Come, gather your possessions,

O people with injured hearts.

Come, O Friends,

Let us go and get killed.

Bhutto’s legacy in hot waters

https://www.facebook.com/lumspublications/posts/2014496772005172

The financial scandal following the JIT report has found the Zardari family along with the PPP and Sindh Government to be in hot waters. With the undertakings by the current federal government under the regime of Imran Khan has seen a renowned party in Punjab go through the charges posed on them. Therefore, it comes with no doubt that the fate of PPP will suffer if not same, but pretty relevant consequences alleged as far as the JIT report is concerned.

The money-laundering case as per the report has definitely thrown a turmoil in the Sindh government and a political storm seems inevitable as for now. However, the most tarnishing point following this scandal is the political future of Bilawal Bhutto Zardari, which hangs by a weak thread, in addition to the fate of the former president.

This has, in turn, kept the followers in fear that their last hope to carry on the Bhutto legacy might be lost in the scandal. Although always under the political shadow of his shrewd father, Bilawal has made a significant impact on parliamentary politics. But his involvement in this financial scandal could adversely affect his politics.  For the charges imposed are indeed critical and would result in a prolonged legal and political battle which would restrain Pakistan People’s Party’s political participation and its progress in general.

While these allegations might be imposed and the unruly statements by Federal Information Minister Fawad Chaudhry, who referred to Sindh being run by ‘goons’ may seem to reflect the Sindh government being overthrown. It is not really that easy to manipulate or destabilize the provincial government. For this in itself would be disastrous for the system, especially at a time when it is faced with economic and political challenges. Politics of confrontation is not an option at the moment.

Coming to the other side of the picture, the role of the federal government, PTI is a stark contrast to their slogan for the sacredness of vote. These allegations and dethroning are not entirely due to the incompetence or corruption charges against the Sindh government but are also in the will to establish a one-party system. And PTI has become a key player in this game, continuously reminding us of such previous attempts in the 1990s, where the governments were installed or removed overnight.

Nevertheless, the political dynamics of the province have changed owing to PTI becoming the second largest party in the province in addition to its electoral victory in Karachi. This along with a strong financial background has given PPP a tough challenge in its own province and has led to a politics that might end up marring the province in the end.

As of now, there is no need to create intimidation or any power syndrome. As this will only ensure a strong uno or a weak center. The sense of national integration at this point is of utmost importance and so is the separation of the accountability process with that of the politics. However, the government’s actions only act to reinforce angsts; they need to find a way to cure the political tension and instability.

 

Some mental health tips for surviving at LUMS

When I came to LUMS, I was messed up in too many ways to count. On top of that I didn’t even know about the bomb that was building up inside me that just needed LUMS as an excuse to burst. Most of us, especially the hostelites, we get to learn so much about ourselves when we embark on this journey of LUMS. Sometimes it is because we have to live in a small room, disconnected from our families who are our emotional support systems. It is when we are stuck in those rooms that all the inner insecurities, frustrations and voices rise in our life and they become bigger than life. It is at that time that we break and we curse LUMS for messing us up. I am not justifying the system of LUMS here; I will be the last person to. All I am saying is that this journey of pain and tears makes us so much better as individuals. Here are some of the tips that I have come up for staying sane at LUMS.

  1. Do something for yourself

The routines that we have at LUMS, it is easy to forget that we exist as individuals and our emotional health is much more important than all the academics. Some of us have such bad routines, especially the SSE people that we forget to find time for ourselves. We start our days in a hurry to get to classes and we sleep while thinking of our classes. I know it’s hard to survive at this and you have too much on your plate but trust me you can spare one hour for yourself in the whole mayhem. Specify one hour each day where you are going to do something solely for your enjoyment and you are going to do it alone. If you are a writer then just sit and write. If you can sketch then do that. Take a bicycle and go for a ride. Swim till all you can think about is swimming. Sit alone and gaze at the sky. Do all this without the background voices telling you that you are wasting your time. If you don’t give time to yourself then you will become angry, irritated, frustrated, tired and depressed in this schedule.

  1. Exercise

You don’t have to spend long hours at the gym or the swimming pool. The aim is not to build a body but the aim is to build barriers for your mind. For 15 to 30 minutes do some exercise be that yoga, aerobics or just a simple walk. Physical exercise helps a lot in relieving all the pent of frustration and anxiety in our bodies.

  1. Seek Help

I agree with you that not everyone at LUMS is helpful or approachable but that is just a minority. There are so many people out there, both in the admin and the student council who would love to help you. Twice in my years at LUMS, I have had anxiety and panic attacks due to a course and I have received immense support from the faculty. All I would do was send a mail and a number of people would reach out to me to help me. If you are going through a difficult time in life then reach out to someone from the LUMS community.

  1. Stop Comparing

I have a horrible GPA and I spent too much of my life being upset over that. Yes there are ‘theetas’ out there and may God bless them but that has nothing to do with you are as a person. Not everyone was meant to get a 4.0 and that is okay. Make your CV so strong that even a 4.0 can’t beat you. We live in a much progressive world and you can prove your worth in many more ways than the GPA on your transcript.

  1. Ditch the Toxicity

I had the luck of making horrible friends and it is now in senior year that I am learning to shed the old and make new friends. Be smart from the beginning and don’t make friends who further pull you down and make you feel even worse about yourself. Everyone is suffering from some emotional trauma I life and they have the tendency to take that out on friends. If you feel like you can’t deal with that then get out of that relationship. Make friends who can provide you with laughter when LUMS hits you.

YLES 13th Edition Report

The following report highlights key fact and relevant information regarding the 13th edition of the Young Leaders’ and Entrepreneurs’ Summit

  • Dates: 23rd December – 27th December (5-day event)
  • Held right after the final exams (one of the biggest challenges for this year was to prepare for the summit during the dead week and final exams)
  • Introduced a new delegation system where participants were not divided as ‘head delegates’ and ‘delegates’, but rather were assigned the following roles at time of registration:
    • Managing Director
    • Finance Director
    • Marketing Director
    • Operations Director
    • Communications Director
      • This system inculcated a sense of responsibility within the delegates and also ensured equal participation across a team as a different round put varying levels of responsibility on different position holders

The theme for this year was ‘be inspired’ – the logic behind this was to portray that one must have some source of inspiration before they can venture out onto their entrepreneurial journey. Each delegate was also given the following card to note down their goals and important learning points over the course of YLES:

A new format was introduced for the networking night – firstly there was a panel talk in the academic block courtyard, led by Hina Rabbani Khar and Ahmed Khan (founder and CEO of cheetay). Secondly, there was a networking session in the academic block courtyards where panels of 4-5 mentors (comprising of CEO’s and industry experts) were placed in each aud and participants were divided amongst the auds to go to their respective panel and receive feedback on their business idea (that they will be using for their idea junction round). This was very well received by both the mentors and the students – who received valuable feedback on their ideas.

Present at the networking night was also our Official Incubator Partner – ID 92, which is another milestone for us. Not only did ID 92 set up a stall at our networking night and provide delegates with feedback but they also provided us with CEO’s and industry experts to judge the final round of Idea Junction. Currently ID92 is in contact with the top 3 position holders in the idea junction round to offer them potential incubation as part of our partnership this year. This was a big deal for us as the ultimate purpose of an entrepreneurial competition is to provide exposure and support to the business ideas being presented at it. The Co-founder of ID 92, Nabeel Qadeer also gave a presentation at our opening ceremony where he talked about the entrepreneurship ecosystem in Pakistan.

  • YLES this year also had an official app, which was used for the following purposes:
    • Navigating across LUMS (and posting the venues for rounds)
    • Posting scores
    • Advertising sponsors
    • Assigning internal duties
  • The YLES host team ramped up its academic prowess by writing original case studies, all in all we wrote the following cases and rounds:
    • 5 cases on failing brands for the round Brand Rush
    • 12 cases on companies that face Public Relations crisis, for the round Plug It In
    • A market entry case on Starbucks for the round Strategic Business Management
    • A case on a hypothetical airline for the final round of Strategic Business Management
    • An extensive storyline based on a hypothetical country along with profiles of 10 different companies for the first round of Investomania *more on this later
    • A set of news updates for Investomania Round 2
    • 8 cases, adapted from those provided by Seed Out, for the first round of Social Enterprise
    • 3 cases for the final round of Social Enterprise

Investomania Round 1: A new concept was introduced for investomania Round 1 where a stock market simulation was created in a hypothetical country. This was done in person in the free parking where we had set up 10 stock broker booths and a news centre. The news Centre comprised of 2 SMD Screens where news updates were posted at regular intervals along with price updates. There were a total of 10 companies and the finance director from each company could approach any of the stockbrokers to buy/sell/trade shares. The Entech Project of LES created an entire ‘stockbroker’ application to allow transactions to be carried out in real time. This entire project and concept took over 5 months to develop and shows the devotion of the host team to enhance the quality of the rounds at YLES.

Investomania Round 2: This round built on the concept introduced last year and created a trading game where the finalists had to trade the following commodities in real time: oil, wheat and rice. Each team was given a PC in trade lab where they had to play the game on a java interface created by the Entech Project of LES. This was again a standalone application created just for this round.

  • 25th December: Christimas Carnival – a first of its kind social event held in LUMS. The Christmas night was held in the REDC lawn and it was a fun time with a lot of music, dance, and Christmas décor!
  • 26th December: Concert – YLES brought strings to LUMS for the 2nd time and it was perhaps the highlight of the entire event
  • Bilal Bin Saqib was the speaker for the closing ceremony and he talked about entrepreneurship and his start up Tayyabah
  • The Marketing and Corporate Relations Department of LES set a new record this year for the highest amount of sponsorship ever brought by a society
  • For the first time ever, YLES had international delegates – a total of 15 international students from Nepal and Afghanistan. Thus, growing our image internationally!
  • As part of our social outreach program we had to SOP teams compete at YLES this year for free. These students belong to schools from underprivileged areas and were provided mentorship throughout the event. For the first time ever, an SOP team won one of the winning prizes as they placed third in the Investomania Round

 

Removing the Taboo One Conversation at a Time

The sunlight dances its way into the room through the huge windows as soft music plays in the background, yet the atmosphere inside remains tense. A young woman clad in a burqa sits on a sofa, clearly distressed. I cannot see her face, but her eyes water up as if in pain. Her voice falters as she proclaims, “Zindagi buri lagti hai…khatam karnay ka dil karta hai” (Life itself seems to be horrible, I sometimes want to end it). Across from her sits Dr. Fareed Aslam Minhas.

Dr. Minhas is a psychiatrist- perhaps one amongst a limited number in Pakistan. As he welcomes me into his clinic during the afternoon on a Monday, I get a quick look into what is my first ever visit to a psychiatrist in Pakistan. The office itself seems to defy my expectations of the typical whitewashed doctor’s office filled with the distinct smell of medicines and blood veiled by antiseptics. One side looks into the garden outside with big windows stretching up to the ceiling. A watercolor painting of a cat faces one of the many comfortable seats lying around. An armchair sits in one corner, behind it the wall is covered by huge wooden cabinets that hold papers and books.  The doctor himself sits in the center, in a swivel chair that he moves around in as patients come and go. He is impeccably dressed in a black suit, a bright pink tie loosely fastened around the collar.

“I think I was in my third year of medical school when I learnt about a woman who was operated on twice- yet it was later discovered that her ailment was mental and not physical. It was then that I realized how psychological and social factors in illness are neglected in our country.”, says the doctor, as he explains his choice of profession to me. Born in Rawalpindi to a large family with 6 siblings above him, Dr. Minhas breaks into a smile as he tells me he had eight parents to supervise him growing up. He moved on to do his MBBS from Rawalpindi Medical College, where he specialized in Psychiatry. It has been a long road since then, and 30 years into his practice he tells me that psychiatric disorders are not only misunderstood by the community, but also by the medical profession in Pakistan.

“Either there are physical problems or there are medical problems, but people by and large tend to disregard mental illnesses due to the belief systems our population has”, he tells me, taking off his thinly framed glasses. Dr. Minhas has throughout his successful career, tried to raise awareness about mental illnesses. Having remained the head of the Institute of psychiatry at Rawalpindi Medical College and the Head of the Department of Psychiatry at Benazir Bhutto Hospital, he has overlooked various projects that work on removing the taboo from mental illnesses in Pakistan, while improving the facilities available to both psychiatrists and patients. It has not been an easy journey.

“You do get problems from time to time. There are certain people who find it difficult to leave treatments, and that is when sad incidents take place. I’ve been hit by my patients several times; my colleagues have faced the same. The people we are dealing with don’t understand what is right and wrong- they lose that sanity, that control over their behavior and actions”, he says.

As patients walk in, the doctor gets up to greet them, remembering their names with ease and greeting them in different ways. He disarms them with his warm smile, making the occasional joke and letting them rant about their problems. As a couple walk in, the woman complains about her husband to the doctor, who responds by jovially remarking “Wo shohar hi kya jo tang na karay” (What sort of a husband is he who doesn’t bother his wife at all). The patient almost at once falls into ease, smiling at his response. Expecting him to use medical jargon, I am left surprised at the way he translates the diagnosis he has for his patients:

“Imagine that you have to go to Siachen from Rawalpindi- you can either walk or take the plane. The plane will get you there faster. These medicines were supposed to be that plane you took on your route to faster recovery. However, we will take the longer route now- but we will still get there.” he says as he reassures a worried patient whose medications are not having the desired effect.

As we fall into a conversation about the recent cases of child abuse in Pakistan, he remarks sadly that child sex abuse is so common in the Pakistani society that around 1 out of 5 patients that he gets have suffered from child abuse at some point in their lives, which has affected their behavior as adults.

“Unfortunately, we live in a very hypocritical society. We choose not to talk about these things- the things that need to be talked about. All the players who matter are involved themselves in the sad events that take place during child abuse. That is how I view my society as a psychiatrist”.

As our meeting moves towards an end, I ask the doctor about his views on the media and its portrayal of mentally ill patients- who are (usually) sadly portrayed raging lunatics, with poorly crafted stories of supernatural control over these patients. Dr. Minhas seems to be upset about this. “The portrayal of mental health in the media is itself stigmatizing the cause of mental health in this country. They simply don’t seem to care- they are more concerned about what news brings in more money”. He does, however, remark that the media too can help join the fight against mental illnesses by showing them as they are and not creating a warped image of people who are victims of various mental illnesses just to create content that the public enjoys at the expense of others.

At the end of the meeting, Dr. Minhas remarks that it is his ability to affect people’s lives for the better with the knowledge he has, that motivates him every single day. As I leave his clinic, I take with me a changed perspective on the world of psychiatry in Pakistan and a renewed hope in the state of the psychiatric care in Pakistan, through the commitment of individuals like Dr. Fareed Aslam Minhas who leave no stone unturned in their fight against mental illnesses.

 

 

 

 

Restoration of Basant Festival

Restoration of Basant Festival

“Punjab Government recently announced its decision to celebrate Basant festival in the second week of February thus lifting the 12-year ban on this celebration which marks the advent of spring”

This news was met with joy especially by the people of Lahore, Gujranwala, Sialkot and adjoining areas where even the ban could not suppress the people from displaying their love for flying large colorful kites. The past governments had banned the celebrations in order to avoid injuries and deaths caused as a result of the festival but since the supreme court clarified that there is no restriction on celebrating Basant as long as it remains under the extent of law and boundaries defined by the government. Coated with abrasive materials, kite strings often become the cause of injury and death of people, to avoid such mishaps, Punjab’s information minister told reporters that a committee comprising of Punjab’s law minister and other administrative people would deliberate and propose plans to avoid such sad incidents from taking place.

Basant festival has its roots in our culture. In every culture, people welcome spring with celebrating different festivals. The celebration of Basant can be traced back to the era of Ranjeet Singh who declared holidays for as long as ten days to appease the masses. The festival holds great importance for Hindus who celebrate the creative energy and power of goddess Saraswati. While for the majority of muslim population of Pakistan, Basant is still considered a cultural heritage, a festival which is celebrated for the positive synergy it creates amongst the common people.

Banning the Basant Festival had affected many in an adverse manner as a great many people who had their livelihoods linked with providing kites, strings and similar products found themselves out of work. Not only would the restoration of Basant boost economic activity but it will also promote tourism and increase goodwill among the people who long to have such events where they can experience festivities, and socialize while, in this case, enjoying the view of a sky full of color and competition.

In the words of a luminite, Shehreyar from Gujranwala, “I can’t wait to go back to my village and feel the adrenaline by flying kites with everyone”. While this may not be the case for many but it is easy to say that a lot of people have positive albeit dormant memories of the festival, the revival of which will make a lot of them happy.

When I find you….

When I find you… 

When I find you through the darkness of my life, the light of you mocks my own existence and decays me to nothing. 

And I rise with joy, oh yes! I have discovered the biggest truth of my life: what really exists is you. 

Let me imagine my existence, 

let me perceive truthfulness and let me hope for the single candela of that light. 

Not because I love that darkness, truthfulness and the light of you but because I live only because you exist…

Only when I find you, I try to live

Cloth on my face

It’s just a cloth on my face

It’s just a cloth on my face

Don’t look at me so

Don’t raise the eyebrows

Don’t turn your faces

Don’t ignore my views

Don’t make judgments about me

It’s just a cloth on my face

I am scared to go ‘all black’ today

Because I am scared to hear ‘ninja’ in the silence that spreads

Each day I adorn myself with ‘colour’

While inside the voiceless comments suffocate me

I dress while always fearing their ‘liberalism’

I am scared to go out today, though I wonder

Isn’t it just a cloth on my face?

I see people I know pass by me

Every time I have to stop and wave at them

I have to wait for them to recognize

I have to wait for them to see

I have to wait for them to acknowledge

Every time I wonder, why don’t you see?

Don’t sell me excuses of how the cloth hides me

It’s just a cloth, there is so much more to me

The way I walk

The way I speak

Says a lot about me

If you only cared to stop and see

Don’t you dare sell me excuses about how you failed to see

As soon as I walk in a room

The cloth on my face stands out more than me

A silence spreads and eyes bore into me

Each glance is loaded with judgment

Each person maintains a distance

I want to ask so much

What is it that repels you so much?

It’s just a cloth on my face

I want to scream out to you

I want to be heard

I want to be seen

I want to be known

Because there is so much more to me than the cloth on my face

Agents of change

Opinions, opinions

Incessant, aplenty

Unsafe to voice them,

Unsafe to act

Guards who swear

Protection and safety

Would not hesitate

To break the pact

The worth of life

Is not much more

Than a few bills of cash

We take to our keyboards

And Facebook and Twitter

In a hurry to bash

To lash

Out at the world – the system that seems so unfair

But none of us can dare

To actually care

Enough to start with ourselves

And change what we can.

LUMS from the lens of a Freshman   

The greatest moment of happiness was when I got my LUMS acceptance letter, instantly Facebook and WhatsApp groups were made where people talked about joys of Oweek and horrors of enrollment. Everyone was happy wondering about life at LUMS especially about hostel-life. On my check-in day, I was a little scared about living away from home. I can still feel the excitement and fear in my heart which I sensed when I entered LUMS. First night was a bit troubling as I was new to this place and knew nothing. I felt like an outsider to this ‘bubble’ of LUMS but I was able to make it. I met a few Facebook friends and we talked about practices and places at LUMS and about courses while sitting at Khokha. Next day was our orientation day and from then on a whole orientation week kicked off. Orientation day was great. Speeches delivered by the Dean of HSS and Law were the best ones. My mother also came to orientation and I had to meet her. When I left to meet her after orientation, the scene of hall changed. I was in middle of a talk when I saw coaches lifting banners and shouting their group numbers and slogans. I soon had to leave my mom because I didn’t want to miss the fun. I found my group in the flood of students. A few of my group members were already there. We all started shouting our group name and slogan. It felt like battle of slogans; all trying to shout louder and louder and struggling to win the battle. We then left to sit in a ground and had icebreaking session. We had different activities during the whole week which helped me in getting comfortable with the environment of LUMS and understanding how it functions. I learnt a lot, met amazing people and coaches, and gained confidence. I am grateful to especially those people who guided and advised me about the life at LUMS and they are still there to help. We freshmen enjoyed O’week a lot but didn’t know this was the silence before storm: the Enrollment. Our breaths were hooked up on the day of Enrollment. We all were advised to go to respective labs at least two hours earlier. I had enrollment at 12:00 pm and I was at the lab at 8:30 am just to be on the safe side. I was not alone. Many students were at the door of lab. We waited and waited but didn’t move from the lab entrance because we were told you won’t get seats. At last, clock ticked 12:00; the students who were already in there came out and we rushed in. We were given an introductory session about how to enroll, what to do, and how to deal with Zambeel. We had to place our courses in shopping cart between 12:30-12:59 pm and enroll them at sharp 1:00. The whole period was numbing. I could feel a mantle clock ticking in my brain. It felt like a ticking bomb, ready to explode at any time. The clock struck 1:00 and everyone started clicking on enroll button holding their breaths. Lab was in utter silence. As for me, I could feel blood rushing in my cheeks, my palms getting sweaty and heartbeat getting fast. I was reciting all the duas I could remember in my mind. I clicked on “Enroll”, and waited and prayed while starring at the rotating circle on the top of screen. Moments later, another screen appeared with green circles in front of each course.  After passing one difficult stage of enrolment, there was another waiting ahead: “Finish Enrolling”. One dungeon after another! At least it felt like a dungeon at that time. I swiftly clicked “Finish Enrolling”. Again, the same rotating circle and I starring at it! A soft scream came out of my mouth “Alhamdulilah!” I got all my courses with all the instructors I wanted (Alhamdulilah!). I was on the seventh sky. But then I heard little shouts behind me: ‘Shit!’, ‘I didn’t get my course’, ‘I didn’t get my instructor’ and so on. I saw lab attendants rushing for their help. It was heart breaking for me, though I was happy for myself but still I had feelings for them too. The severe stress I got was on second enrollment i.e. enrollment for second semester. It was held at 7pm and all labs were full by 11:30am Luckily, I got one last corner seat at the end of IST lab 4 but unluckily no friend around. All the labs were assigned 15 minutes policy that is after 15 minutes computer would log out and anyone can sit at your computer. I didn’t have a laptop so it was necessary for me to be glued at my place. I also had to skip my class for that. I had light breakfast and had to skip lunch just to save my seat and because of that I got stomachache. I had to leave for prayer and asked the girl sitting next to me to take care of my seat and assured her I will be back in 15 minutes but she refused. There was a class-fellow of mine in the same lab. I asked her and she sat on my seat leaving hers (May Allah bless her!). I prayed and came back. Now the next problem was hunger. I tried to divert myself till 4:30pm but after that I couldn’t resist more so I decided to text my roommate. She was in E-lab. She immediately agreed to bring me food (I am really thankful to her for this favor. May Allah bless her too! ) Finally comes the enrollment time and I got the course I wanted (By the way, all this trouble was to get one course and there was Phase II waiting ahead). On that day I realized how people can be both mean and kind. Where I experienced unhelpful behavior, I also experienced kindness and love. It does not matter what life gives you, what you focus on matters and I decided to focus on the love of people that I received. In Phase II, I got my courses but they were dropped because of some issue. In re-Phase II enrollment, I got only one course but it is the way life is: “Kabhi khushi, kabi gham”. I have completed my first year now and Thanks to Allah it went really well, not much of mental stress. I experienced real life during this year; I met snakes, I met pigeons, I met hawks and it is just one year. I hope to learn and experience much more in the coming years.